now about my love interest
I feel like talking about this because I was talking about it a lot yesterday with a friend of mine, and Valentine’s Day tends to make me think about such things.
I’ve dated and slept around a lot for the past several months, but I’ve been avoiding pursuing an actual relationship here in LA for a number of reasons. Among the most prominent are (in no particular order):
- fear of commitment (on a scall of small to large, I’d give it a grande)
- not sure how long I’ll be here
- kinda hung up on someone, which is what this is all about…
I’m more or less in love with one of my best friends, and I’ve been aware of it for about a year and a half now.
She and I have been friends for almost 7 years now, and we’re incredibly close. We met before college and we ended up going to the same school. After graduating, I came out here and she moved somewhere else, but we talk on the phone at least a couple times a week. I’m basically okay with posting this because I know she doesn’t read this because she prefers to hear my stories from me firsthand, rather than reading them online. If she does happen to read it, though, then she knows and I guess I’ll just have to deal with whatever happens.
The problem is not that we live far away. The problem is that the two of us have never actually been single at the same time. And her current boyfriend (of over a year) is an awesome guy. As much as I want to hate him, I really, really like him.
And I most certainly do not want to be the reason that she and him break up, so I’m not doing anything about it right now. I’m kind of resigned to sitting back and seeing what happens with them. If we’re meant to happen, then they’ll break up, and then I will definitely act on my feelings.
Plus I’ve got a helluva lot on my plate right now, trying to get my career going, so it’s not like it’s something that is bringing me down in a major way at the moment. I just wanted to share my heart with you guys a little.
Oh, a positive note is that she’s thinking about moving to LA sometime in the next year.
Why I’ve been feeling down today
Last night I had a loooong conversation with one of my coworkers about my love interest (which I’ll get to later), and her marriage.
She and I are pretty close, and I’ve had the very unfortunate, very weird experience of watching her marriage fall apart for the past half a year or so. I said some things last night—in a fit of brutal honesty—that made her cry and I feel fucking horrible about it. I wish I could take them back.
I told her that, from what I’ve seen and heard, I just don’t think his heart is in their marriage anymore. That one hit her hard.
God, I’m an asshole. What the fuck do I know about marriage? And it was Valentine’s Day, too. I should just keep my fucking mouth shut.
She’s a good friend, and she insists I don’t have to feel bad about what I said, but I still feel shitty about it. Ugh.
Bryan Haggerty and his partner Jeannie Choe call themselves “Romantech” because they’re geeks at heart. So it only made sense for him to propose to her this week with an iPhone app, which he designed by himself.
The technological Casanova on Wednesday asked the big question, only after putting his girlfriend through a video scavenger hunt of sorts guided by his iPhone app.
“I thought about all the typical kinds of ways, and they all kind of just weren’t working for me,” Haggerty said. “I said, ‘That’s not really how I would do it.’ So I came up with the idea.”
Haggerty designed the web app, befittingly titled Romantech, to display a map containing location points throughout San Francisco. Each point was accompanied by a video of Haggerty giving clues on where to go next.
Eventually the two met at Dolores Park, where all the dots connected to form the shape of a <3 symbol. There, Haggerty sat on top of a hill, greeting her upon her arrival. And he proposed.
“I kind of had a feeling,” Choe said. “When I first saw the app I knew what was going to happen.”
The caret-heart symbol harbors a lot of sentimental value for the tech savvy couple. When the two first starting dating two and a half years ago, Haggerty gave Choe a necklace containing <3.
Heart-shaped island highlighted by Google Earth becomes hit with lovers
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The 130,000 square yard islet of Galesnjak came to prominence after its unusual shape was highlighted on Google Earth.
Even the owner of the uninhabited island - now known as Lovers’ Island - didn’t realise how perfectly heart-shaped the island off the Croatian coast was until he was swamped with requests from couples to stay there.
It seems many lovers from around the world consider it the ideal spot for a romantic Valentine’s Day break.
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(via franklieu)
I don’t know why I’m thinking about you so much today, Morgan, but I often wonder what would have been if only we’d had more time. Our summer together was glorious and beautiful and easy and it was over so quickly. I don’t know if you think of me where you are, in Spain; I don’t know if there’s a man in your life now; I don’t even know if you’re the same person I came to know all those years ago; but just know that I will never forget you.
About Me
My name is Lawrence Denes.After spending 5 years studying Japanese language, culture, literature, and history in St. Louis and Kyoto, I now live in Japan, in a town that most Japanese people have never even heard of, lost amid the rice fields and vending machines.
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