Why I’ve been feeling down today
Last night I had a loooong conversation with one of my coworkers about my love interest (which I’ll get to later), and her marriage.
She and I are pretty close, and I’ve had the very unfortunate, very weird experience of watching her marriage fall apart for the past half a year or so. I said some things last night—in a fit of brutal honesty—that made her cry and I feel fucking horrible about it. I wish I could take them back.
I told her that, from what I’ve seen and heard, I just don’t think his heart is in their marriage anymore. That one hit her hard.
God, I’m an asshole. What the fuck do I know about marriage? And it was Valentine’s Day, too. I should just keep my fucking mouth shut.
She’s a good friend, and she insists I don’t have to feel bad about what I said, but I still feel shitty about it. Ugh.
About Me
My name is Lawrence Denes.After spending 5 years studying Japanese language, culture, literature, and history in St. Louis and Kyoto, I now live in Japan, in a town that most Japanese people have never even heard of, lost amid the rice fields and vending machines.
Please feel free to ask me anything, or send me an email.
